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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) breeetarded
New Lj :] If you want to add me <3
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| New things from a shitty realtionship. |
[06 Sep 2007|01:48pm] |
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Well new happenings have arrived,I just found out that my ex was pretty much being a douche the ending part o the realtionship. He lied to me about going to work, he would have his older brother call his phone, telling him he had to work, when he didn't. Then when I would be over, he would drop me off at home then go and hang out with his friend. Also due to these happening, I was pretty much the only person in the actually putting any effort into the realtionship. I am totally over and done with him completely, I am moving on. I never want to talk or see him again. I think I can finally growup and not have anymore distractions.
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| Oh yah. |
[02 Jul 2007|07:26pm] |
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Will and I broke up.
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| My thoughts on this realtionship |
[03 May 2007|12:51pm] |
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Over the past year, I have been with william. But as of lately, I don't think I want to be with him. Lately I've been putting myself into a hole and digging myself into a ditch and leave myself there. He seems like all he thinks I am good for is my body as of lately. But you know...I am not just worth that, I am more than just that but I feel like he doesn't see me more than just that sometimes. He give me commplements about my intellagence, only that I have great breasts or whatever.
I don't think I am just that, I am more than just my body. I have a mind and a way of thinking, I am tired or crying and tired of being depressed. It seems like he lies to me repeatedly or doesn't tell me anything. Only because he says he doesn't want to see me cry, but you know I cry all the time and I am just tired of him not telling me the truth about things.
I am not a child, I do not need to be babied around. I am stronger than he thinks of me. I am really starting to think I don't need him. I am starting to think that I am better off without him. I can stand on my two feet and I can make it without a man. I dunno, I am still thinking on this but I am stronger than he thinks I am.
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| Life thus far |
[30 Apr 2007|07:28pm] |
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Alright to make a long story short, I have been under EXTEME amounts of stress/depression. I found out awhile ago that my boyfriend might be moving away to california. He also might move when I am in europe. I have school to finish and I have quit my job FINALLY! On the plus though, will and I have been together a year and a month now :D So I guess that's the only plus at the moment. lol Well I am off again. Sorry for not posting much anymore.
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| My life |
[26 Mar 2007|09:24pm] |
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World of Warcraft has my soul.
Damn you william <3
Will and I are in lovey Dovey mode currently, next month on the 13th, we will have been together for a year now. ;] Can't wait! Then after that is pride weekend so we're both going to that!
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We're back together<3
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[02 Mar 2007|08:48am] |
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break up's suck.
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| Dead |
[03 Feb 2007|10:58pm] |
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I am so dead tired, I still have to work on my project. Going to bed after I finish two slides.
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| A brand new year, a brand new start. |
[02 Jan 2007|09:39pm] |
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First off Happy Late New years! Second off I am back from Virginia. I had a good time, it was really cold. It also rainied on christmas day, but I had a good dinner so it was well worth it. But Christmas eve kind of sucked, ;[ Will almost broke up with me but then he realized how much he loved me. So we're good now, happy as ever ;] I spent new years with him and at midnight I got a speical kiss from him <3! This year I plan on doing something differnt, I am going to learn how to drive a bit and also I am going to be a bit more indepant!
Finally be the best girlfriend to william <3 I love him alot. In 25 day from now, I shall be 18! This year and this month is going to be full of changes for me. I am going to be on birth control soon, also I'll be considered a adult! A ton of changes for me but I shall make it through ;]
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| UPDATE FINALLY!! |
[17 Dec 2006|10:32pm] |
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Yes Yes I know I haven't updated in a LONG TIME! I am still alive, just rather busy with things. Well because my family and I are leaving for Virginia. Next week on friday, we decisided to have Christmas early ;] Which was great! Will and I are still together and going on 9 or 10 months now. I totally forgot how long we have been together, but we are still very much in love with eachother. I am still working, which has been a big impact on my life. Will is still working too and we both have our own schudules (sp?) I am still going to school and will is doing his tutoring and now he is working at his school.
Well for christmas I didn't ask for much I got a new mp3 player, the creative vision: M. I just got it like 2 hours ago and i am now uploading a crap load of stuff in there. So overall, I've had a great x-mas. Will hasn't gotten me anything yet, cause of money issues but that's okay. He is going to give me it when I get back ;] Well I am ending my 2nd block of school this week so on the 22nd I will be having my well deserved vaction. I will be back before new year. I'll proably spend sometime with william and have and build some strong memories. Next year I am thinking will be fun! I'll be a senior in high school in the fall and I'm turing the one eight! I can't wait. I'll proably update more too. Bye!
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[22 Nov 2006|07:51pm] |
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My boyfriend just said this "Bree your boobs are like a handgun, small but in the right hands they are deadly."
WTFFF
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| DOGS! |
[04 Nov 2006|12:07am] |
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STUPID DOGS ATE ALL MY 120$!!
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| Update |
[14 Oct 2006|01:07pm] |
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Well for the past few days has been a tad be rushed but I am now on fall break. My drama preformance is done and we did fairly well. I looped my lines at the part I knew I was going to but I got myself right back on it. So I did well, the PSAT's are on wednesday so I have to study the test booklet for that. I might take the test booklet with me to work and gaze over it and read it a bit. Then I'll do the practice test with will and he'll check it, On tuesday I am going out with my FBLA group or just evan and I to this dinner theader thing. Well I am apparently the VP (Vice President) of it now. Which kind of freaks me out. I also have NHS stuff to do as well, so next year might be a little hecktic for me. On wednesday also, will leaves for california to see his friend john graduate from Boot Camp. I hope they all have a good time there.
I have been enjoying work lately and the people I work with, I am really starting to enjoy it. I am talking to people I normally don't talk to that much and getting to know people more and more. The only sad thing about this week is that I am sick, but I will get over it soon. My lower back has already stopped hurtting as much as it did. Thanks to good old medication. I have a dentist appoiment on thrusday which I am not looking forward to cause I hate the dentist. But tomorrow I get to spend time with will and sleep with him a bit. Kelly has been really busy alot with stuff at her school, so seeing her is slim to none.
I went out with Will B the other night, that was fun and he kept scaring me alot so I my throat hurt by the end of the time with him. I really want to see Saw II. Also Saw III, I think they'd be really good. What else has been going on, oh! Will got a new job at his school so I'll still see him alot but not as much as I used to. I think he'll really enjoy it and he's getting alot more money than he is making already. I think a little time away from eachother with us might be a good thing, because I have 2 core classes block 2.
So I have to make sure I pass those, I have American History B. I love history so I can't wait, but I am kind of scared to find out my grades. I hope I did well on my math final, I really hope I got a high C or a B minus. Well anyways I am going to get going now. Byee~
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| How is it? |
[09 Oct 2006|03:47pm] |
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How is it that every time I get mad at you. I can never hate you.
How is that every time you get cranky with me and we fight sometimes, I can never stop loving you?
How is it that I can always feel pretty around you, in whatever I may wear.
How is it that I feel so protected by you?
How is it that I can never stop loving you?
You want to know the reason why? It's because I'm in love with you...
EDIT: Okay I'm in a werid mood right now, like I'm mad and I'm romantic at the same time. Werid?
Well I can't see will today, cause he is hanging out with shawn ;[ I have to take a test in math, and I have my drama final in 2 days! Then finally the end of the block! So good, I hope I have a good grade in every one of my classes. I need to memorize my lines pretty goddamn well. Math I need to worry about my grade, I need to ask my math teacher tomorrow. What it is, during 0 Hour. I hope will can come to my preformance on Wednesday. I really want him too, It wouldn't be worth while if he didn't come. :[ Other than that, Nothing new. I have a shit load of things to do next week. Will is also leaving on the 18th, so I won't get to see him until the 21st. Which sucks! I need to call my best friend mom again too. Well That's all for now.
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| Doubt |
[07 Oct 2006|10:46pm] |
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I often wonder why I have doubt in myself, is it because of my lack in trust in people. Or my lack of trust in myself. I always have doubt in myself or anything I do. In my workplace, I have doubt that I am not working hard enough, so I work harder so that I can make sure everyone is happy with my preforamance. At school I work hard and I join FBLA and I am in NHS, so I make sure I do well with my life. But there is always that doubt that I am not doing anything good at all. That I'm not working hard enough to do what is right or do what is suppose to be good. Or with william I try so hard to make sure he is happy and I try to say the right things but there is always doubt in there.
Doubt that makes me feel like he doesn't love me, but I know he does. I know he loves me and I know he cares for me, and I know he'll always be there for me and there to support me in anything I want to do. But there is always that doubt that he doesn't love me. I want him to tell me romantic things and I want him to tell me why he loves me. But he doesn't know why, he just does. I always have doubt in myself and my performance and how I do things and why people love me the way they do. Why do they, what is so speical about me? Do I deserve it? Did I earn it? Why must this doubt always come back to me, why must it keep haunting me? Why must I worry about everything, why can't I be sure about something and not have this doubt hanging over my sholders.
If I keep this up, I will just push him away, he won't love me anymore. He wants to see me happy and be the happy person he wants me to be. But all this doubt just comes out, I hate all this doubt. I trust him, I trust everything to him, but I get upset over the smallest stuff and I always doubt his love. Why can't I just be sure about myself for once?
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| 7 Amazing months of ups and downs since I met you. |
[07 Oct 2006|06:30am] |
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It's been 7 amazing months with Will<3
1st month was getting to know eachother, first time you came over I got a rememberable kiss <3
2nd month was fun and enjoyable, I got to be with you all the time. We were starting to become closer. You told me those words 'I love you' for the first time, I was falling hard for you.
3rd month school was ending so I became busy all of a sudden, I missed you every moment of the day. When I got to see you, I was over joyed I would just want to kiss you all over.
4th month was the hardest, I had to leave you and we almost broke up over my lack of self confedance, I grew to fall in love with you more and more.
5th month we a life changing month for me, this is when we became 'connected' to eachother. I knew you were the right one for me.
6th month we still start learning knew things about the world and about eachother. To me you became my bestfriend in the world.
7th month we may are still learning new things about eachother, but I know for sure. I want to spend a year or more with you. You make my life go by so fast, and you will always be there for me, and I the same for you. I love you William. You are my everything and my world, I will always be by yourside.
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| Bad Day. |
[28 Sep 2006|02:52pm] |
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I've had a bad day today, Last night, will wanted to hang out with me. So I said that I'd call him by 12 when my grandparents go to sleep. Then he'd pick me up. Well I fell asleep and I work up around 3am. I felt so bad all day, so when I called him at lunch, I cried on the phone with him twice, he said it was okay. I still feel really really bad about it. He is going to a baseball game at 6, so I won't get to hear and or talk with him for a while. I might get to see him tomorrow, I really hope so cause I miss him really bad. I also have work tomorrow from 5-10pm, which I don't mind. Overall today hasn't been the best day ever. ;[
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